There are things that I cannot say

There are a list of things that I can't say, may never be able to say, would not know how to say.

I am so in love with you that if you never wanted to have sex again, that would be alright with me. I would still want you every day of my life, but I would give it up without any regret.

At night, I can't sleep without you. Even when I'm angry with you, even when I can't stand to see your face, I still want to hear your noises in my house.

I am never more safe, more free to be myself, more able to acheive my dreams than when I am with you. I cannot imagine a time when I would be without you. The very thought is terrifying.

I want to marry you. I have never wanted to marry anyone in my life. Not even my first love.

I may not agree with you, I may even think you are mad, but when we are together, it is us against the world. Outsiders beware; I will never tolerate word one against you.

I love the very things about you that others can't accept. I love your sense of humor, your sheer irreverance for everything. I love that you would take a life in defense of mine and I don't take that honor lightly. I love your unwavering devotion to our country.

I love that you are kind to my parents. They are the most tolerant that I have ever seen them of anyone.

I only regret that I can't tell you any of this.